Im going to explode.

I don't know if I can handle my classes this semester. I've never struggled so much in my life!

I guess I'm getting my first taste of what college is REALLY like...

After I took my math test last night, I really felt like driving over a cliff. I'm pretty sure I bombed that test despite how much I THOUGHT I knew. This school year started off horribly... I just hope I can catch up but its easier said than done. The material that I learn for my classes builds upon the previous sections so in order for me to catch up, I'm going to need to start at the BEGINNING.

I always get the sudden urge to get up, buy a plane ticket to India or Africa or something and just live somewhere completely foreign for the rest of my life. I wouldn't have to worry about getting into good colleges.. how stupid of me to think this way... but when I'm really bummed I really put some consideration into booking that flight.

FUCK IT MAN.

I need to man up.

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

my bad

Coffee

I've always hated the taste of coffee. I can't stand the bitterness and I almost always burn my tongue.

Unfortunately, I've started drinking coffee because my studies are hitting me hard, real hard, and I don't have the will to force myself to stay awake while I'm studying.

I just hope I don't come to rely on this bitter beverage...

....

Physics is what has been hitting me the HARDEST. At first I thought I liked physics. I thought I liked the challenge that each problem confronted. I thought I liked coming up with zany solutions to a difficult problem. Well it turns out that I don't..

I don't know what I've gotten myself into, but I just hope I persevere. Maybe with the help of coffee, I'll be able to overcome physics. Maybe coffee is the zany solution to my woes.. Coffee sure does make me zany.